.......well fuck

im having trouble sleeping again.  i just woke up and its 4pm.....the bad thing is IM STILL TIRED.  i need to figure out how to fix this...i might simply sleep all day today and wake up early tomorrow so that my sleeping schedule is changed.  wish me luck.

OOPS!!!

forgot to blog for a couple of days...well i guess i should do one...:P

well for the past 3 days ive been going to physical therapy and trying to fix my back....not working too well.  another thing is im also trying to continue with my "let's play Final Fantasy IX" but my laptop keeps lagging in the process, so i have to figure out how to stop that before i can continue. 

on a good note my truck is fixed! yay, now i can actually go places beside my room to my porch.

also i hvae many events coming up so i have to prepare.  i have my amtgard stuff, local midreign and kingdom Endreign...my anime conventions... Onicon and Yulecon...i missed louisianime cause its this weekend.  :(

anywho...leave comments and let me know if youw ant to know about Amtgard or the cons i go to...

blarg!

random post here...how is everyone?

currently i am listening to Disturbed, by far one of my favorite bands eva! indestructable is the song that just ended and i am going to listen to some more..leave comments of what yalls favorite band/song is! also enjoy this video!

I HATE MORNIGNS

greetings to a new day and a new morning.....god i hate mornings.

especially now that i have to do physical therapy 3 days out of the week at 930 am.  so my sleeping in is shot now until i finish PT.

on a god note i may have a GF in the near future! keep watching for updates.

News on myself and updates for the blog

i dont i've done this yet, but here is my little introduction.

My name is Josh, i live in Texas in the city of Killeen which is attached to ft hood.  i am 24 years old and already broken...hence the blog title ( XD ) due to my injury i am stuck with my parents until i either a. heal up and get another job to move out, or b. get on ssi or something like that to support myself. 

i've already explained in a  previous post about my injury  and now i am just trying to get by day by day.

now for the blog...i'll be posting regularly on here about whats happening to me and what i am doing...this is also somewhat of a online journal that yall can see .

for those of you who live in texas near the killeen/harkerheights/temple area post a comment and let me know i'll prolly hang out with you!

Thank you

To all those who are supporting me in my time of need, thank you,  i will be helping those who help me in the days to come.

new things/ YOUTUBE!

sry guys ive been actually adding things...trying to make an attempt at remembering my html so i can add stuff to the site... but now i have it somewhat wher ei like it....so hopefully you guys will be seeing a lot more posts from me. 

Also for those of you who like this, i am begining to do what are called "let's Play"s on Youtube, where i play a videogame and do commentary on it while im playing, my Channel is youtube.com/cssamurai

my first game is Final Fantasy 9 and if yall are interested go ahead and jump on there and watch, post comments video comments, subscribe.....anything you can to help me get my channel known or just to say hi. 

Damn this back of mine!

well i guess i'll give the story about my back...cause this is a blog, and i really shold use it more.

May 8th of 2009 i worked for Uhual international. and that specific day, one of my bosses ( the assistant manager) told me to re organize the trailers, the ones that were enclosed, by hand, its not that hard to do, the leverage on those things are actually nice.

Well when i got to work on them i felt fine, only after the 4th or 5th one is when my back spasmed out and said "your done" i really couldnt move anymore and i actually was starting to cry out in pain.....which i rarely do... I called up to the office and told someone to come down and help me..all they did was drive in a truck and tell me to walk back up ( yay laziness, one time its gotten it's revenge on me) well the following day after the weekend ( this was on a friday, so i went monday) i went to the doctor for us which is scott and white workmen's comp and got "treated" for the injury...they told me " oh your back is really tense" and so on. after a month out of work due to my back, i was still in pain, and they didnt do much of anything. they tried Physical Therapy, but it didnt help either. i had to lie to PT just for them to shut up cause they did understand that my back was hurting worse from them then from the injury. when i finally got back to work. ( which is when i went into worker's comp for the last time and they said i was fine, the pain is "in my head") i was fired 3 days later cause i didnt know what i was doing anymore.

fast forward to a year and 2 months later. my back still is fucked, and now is getting worse. i was told i can try and re evaluate my back from it with worker's comp and try to get medical assistance. after telling the doctor there about my plight, he said it doesnt count cause i woke up with more pain than usual.......so now knowing the doc there is a quack, my father told me to get a second opinion. FUN FACT! for scott and white worker's comp the only way you can get a second opinion is to change doctors, and then you can never go back to them if you are severely injured with any injury that involves that comp injury.

So i went to my new doctor about a month ago, he did a thourough check of my back...and told me i have constant back strain in my lower back, concentrating on my spinal cord ( yay me.), and here is the kicker. i may slip a disc soon. s

So there you have it folks. and again as my title says DAMN THIS BACK OF MINE!!!!!

long time coming

Holy crap i can't believe this thing still exists, i made this for a class a while back and i thought it was deleted....

anywho life for me has become hectic, its been two years and in that time i have become broken....yay me.